I had started to feel like I wanted to wield her, the way my friends wield dark powers and weapons. But being here, without her... I don't know. I'm unsettled by her absence. But it's so much easier to get along.
You've gotten used to her being there for you, right? It must be strange to lose that, after so long.
[ makes sense it'd feel weird with her gone, when delilah had quite literally changed the course of her life, and afterlife. but now she isn't here to whisper such poisonous things in laudna's ears, either. ]
It sounds to me like you're... happier, I think, to be free to make your own choices without her influence. [ not that this is the happiest situation to be in, but. ] You did look distressed when you heard her again last week. But there's nothing wrong with taking time to figure out what feels right to you, Laudna-dono. Things like that, matters of the heart and figuring out what's best for you or for others... it's difficult, but I believe that you'll find the answers.
[she looks thoughtful and touched by this - he seems to understand even though this isn't something most people find easy to understand and gives her some consideration.]
[ as much as he'd like to reassure laudna that her memories are real, just as his are, it's hard to do when she's clearly questioning so much. it sounds terribly confusing, and frustrating.
but he bows his head. ]
Of course. I only wish you the best of luck in finding what you need. [ that much, at least, he can do. ] And I hope they bring you the happiness that you deserve.
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[she doesn't mind explaining.]
I had started to feel like I wanted to wield her, the way my friends wield dark powers and weapons. But being here, without her... I don't know. I'm unsettled by her absence. But it's so much easier to get along.
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[ makes sense it'd feel weird with her gone, when delilah had quite literally changed the course of her life, and afterlife. but now she isn't here to whisper such poisonous things in laudna's ears, either. ]
It sounds to me like you're... happier, I think, to be free to make your own choices without her influence. [ not that this is the happiest situation to be in, but. ] You did look distressed when you heard her again last week. But there's nothing wrong with taking time to figure out what feels right to you, Laudna-dono. Things like that, matters of the heart and figuring out what's best for you or for others... it's difficult, but I believe that you'll find the answers.
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...Thank you, Iwatooshi-dono.
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but he bows his head. ]
Of course. I only wish you the best of luck in finding what you need. [ that much, at least, he can do. ] And I hope they bring you the happiness that you deserve.