Mm, you've all been struggling quite a bit, haven't you? It's unfortunate that we can't stay longer... or at least bring you all safely to where we've been.
It's... it's been difficult. I never actually experienced loss for myself, only from the memories I'd been given, so in a sense this has been my first genuine experience with death...
...it wasn't your fault. I just... I wish I'd been able to support you a little better.
[if he'd known, if he'd paid more attention-- he even suggested himself how injuries could've been hidden, and then didn't suspect at all. maybe if he'd done better, then even if iwatooshi couldn't speak of it, he could have tried to help.]
...Right. The point is that I don't blame you for anything, and I'm still grateful to have had you for a partner while I did.
In the meantime, I've been trying to keep an eye on Lucas-dono, as well. He's gotten into some trouble before. But I did convince him to spar with me recently, so that's been very fun!
Um, I don't know whether all of you coordinated sending your letters or not, but if you didn't, then... you were the only one who actually told me what was coming, instead of only... telling me things would become harder, but not saying why. So I wanted to say thank you for that, as well.
...We tried to ensure the information would reach as many of you as possible, yes. It's likely that they were just trying to be careful, but I thought you deserved to know just as much as the others. It still affects you.
It does leave a heavy burden on your shoulders, though.
I know... It's unfair to all of you. [ but life often is. ] But I understand. I miss you, too - we all do - but whatever happens, I'll support you until the end. I can promise you that.
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[it's still very new, so! maybe it is that one.]
...y-you should... send me one of yourself, too, though. So that I can do the same.
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Then I will. I've only received one of myself, but I'd be happy if you were to hold onto it.
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But you'll still have to fill me on everything, too. [ he grins. ] You looked very happy at the party, last week.
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[nothing to do with dancing with (redacted).]
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I know what you mean. We've had parties for that purpose, too - it does wonders for everyone's morale.
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[it's bad! it's so bad.]
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So we have to make the most of the time we have.
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[ touches his shoulder out of pure reflex and probably sends a chill down his spine. oops? ]
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[if he'd known, if he'd paid more attention-- he even suggested himself how injuries could've been hidden, and then didn't suspect at all. maybe if he'd done better, then even if iwatooshi couldn't speak of it, he could have tried to help.]
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[ he disappears goodbye
and comes back in a minute ]
...Right. The point is that I don't blame you for anything, and I'm still grateful to have had you for a partner while I did.
In the meantime, I've been trying to keep an eye on Lucas-dono, as well. He's gotten into some trouble before. But I did convince him to spar with me recently, so that's been very fun!
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A-and he's been sparring...? Um, please be careful with him...
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[ frets gently ]
Ah, don't worry, I've been very careful! He was worried about hurting me, I think, but he's made a fun opponent!
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Please?
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[ sighs. ]
Alright. I'll write to you once I get back and let you know what I can. I don't think the veil will let me say it here.
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[...]
Um, I don't know whether all of you coordinated sending your letters or not, but if you didn't, then... you were the only one who actually told me what was coming, instead of only... telling me things would become harder, but not saying why. So I wanted to say thank you for that, as well.
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[ to both, honestly. ]
...We tried to ensure the information would reach as many of you as possible, yes. It's likely that they were just trying to be careful, but I thought you deserved to know just as much as the others. It still affects you.
It does leave a heavy burden on your shoulders, though.
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If I don't, then I want you to know that it wasn't because I didn't want to see you and everyone else. I- I do. Very much.
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I know... It's unfair to all of you. [ but life often is. ] But I understand. I miss you, too - we all do - but whatever happens, I'll support you until the end. I can promise you that.