[ well. iwatooshi won't put any blame on mathis for it, even with that, but he doesn't want to invalidate his feelings on the matter, either. so maybe if he redirects it, a little... ]
And nothing came of it, Mathis-dono. Don't worry about it too much, alright?
Besides! [ he stands a little taller, grinning. ] It meant I got to hug you for a bit, didn't it? I wouldn't call that "trouble" at all.
he takes a breath, though, considering the easiest way to put this.]
But I'm not actually... human... I was created, too. That's- that's the condition of mine that I told you about before. The way that I was born isn't meant to be done, s-so I'm...
[he likely isn't going to last, as he is.]
The person who made me created... a false history for me, from others' memories. That's why I attacked Monsieur Gale; I was more like... the person that the memory of hating someone was taken from. It wasn't just the curse.
[it could happen without it, too. that curse just also happened to trigger his brain problems.]
[ ooooouggh. it isn't often that iwatooshi is stunned into silence, his usual bright smile fading in an instant. science is beyond him, so it's a little difficult to understand fully, but - considering his own background, iwatooshi thinks he understands. ]
...I see. We're more alike then I realized, aren't we?
[ memories creating a false history and all. but that's neither here nor there - the more important thing is ]
Does it happen often? Your memories affecting you like that.
I-it's normally... triggered by something related to those memories... in that case, being cursed to hate him. If we hadn't argued, it might not have happened so quickly, but I think... it would have later.
[just as more of a slow burn, maybe.]
So it isn't something that I can really avoid, especially since I'm less stable... b-but I can be shocked out of it. Monsieur Daan did.
Th... thank you. Others know, too, so they can help, but I didn't want everyone to...
[he's causing enough trouble already, for the people he's opted to tell.
after taking a moment to steel himself a bit--]
I wanted to- ask you something, as well, but I needed to explain what happened to you first. [to make sure he knew what happened. about what he is, and his instability.] Be- because-- um, when we spoke before, I thought you asked my opinions on finding my partner very quickly, so I was unsure if you only wanted to know or if you... thought that yours might be me.
I'm all right with telling you what I am either way. Even if you can't, or-- would prefer not to.
Don't worry, Mathis-dono. Your secret will be safe with me.
[ punctuated with a formal bow, a show of his resolve.
...but the follow up question does surprise him, a little, so he shakes his head. ]
To be honest, I've no idea who my partner is. I've heard we can receive clues from the overseers, if we like, but I haven't asked. I didn't see the need, in case my partner didn't want to be found.
But I wouldn't mind it at all, if we were partners. And even if we aren't, I trust you.
[ how could he not, after mathis trusted him with something so important? ]
I mostly asked about mine so I could try to have some idea of who might look for me... when I spoke with Famine about it, they said-- it inherently requires the will of two people. I wanted to find them first, so that I could... tell them what I just told you. I-in case they didn't want to take that sort of risk.
[so. well. a longer pause, deeper breath, fingers curled tight into the fabric of his sleeves.]
If you're... still willing to say that you wouldn't mind, after hearing it, then...
upon the two of them finding each other, a glow will suddenly emit from both of their bodies. magic will course through them, and they will both feel immediately that a wish is waiting to be granted.
they will also immediately feel their upgraded power: alongside their current one, they will each be able to have one additional vote in trial ]
I understand what you mean. It's important to understand the risks first, especially with a situation like yours. Thinking of your partner that way... you are very kind.
[ but that... isn't at all what he expected to hear. he had already accepted that he may never know his partner - it's a big step, after all, to anchor your life to another's, and completely understandable that some wouldn't want to.
and now, faced with that risk himself, iwatooshi can't help but smile. ]
So that makes us partners, then, does it?
[ without any further warning, he sweeps mathis up into a hug - not unlike before, but maybe a little warmer, when it's out of pure affection and not to stop a fight. ]
[the mod tag pre-inves notif jumpscare hhhhelp. mathis blinks at that glow, distracted by it briefly before all of a sudden he's being swept up and hugged-- he reflexively wraps his arms around iwa's neck for stability, clinging, before he smiles back.]
Y-you still could-! [there are undoubtedly better people to be with, when it comes to this.] But if you're really all right with me, then... then I'll do my best to be a good partner for you.
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You mean the incident with Gale-dono? [ he smiles. ] It's alright. It sounds as if someone used an ability, right? So it isn't your fault, or his.
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[a little shake of his head, there.]
I ended up causing you trouble thanks to that...
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And nothing came of it, Mathis-dono. Don't worry about it too much, alright?
Besides! [ he stands a little taller, grinning. ] It meant I got to hug you for a bit, didn't it? I wouldn't call that "trouble" at all.
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I-it's probably more pleasant to hug someone when they aren't trying to kill another person...
[normal hugs would be allowed! preferred even!!]
I... wanted to speak with you about something else, too, if I may, but I'd like to... explain what happened first.
[to at least give him an understanding of why he would fly off the handle and try to stab a man in the first place.]
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[ he's teasing, but also not? if mathis wants another hug he will absolutely give him another hug. it doesn't even need to be affection week for that.
but since he's taking this so seriously, iwatooshi will give him the respect he deserves. ]
Whatever you want to discuss, I'm all ears.
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[iwatooshi does give good hugs...
he takes a breath, though, considering the easiest way to put this.]
But I'm not actually... human... I was created, too. That's- that's the condition of mine that I told you about before. The way that I was born isn't meant to be done, s-so I'm...
[he likely isn't going to last, as he is.]
The person who made me created... a false history for me, from others' memories. That's why I attacked Monsieur Gale; I was more like... the person that the memory of hating someone was taken from. It wasn't just the curse.
[it could happen without it, too. that curse just also happened to trigger his brain problems.]
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...I see. We're more alike then I realized, aren't we?
[ memories creating a false history and all. but that's neither here nor there - the more important thing is ]
Does it happen often? Your memories affecting you like that.
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[just as more of a slow burn, maybe.]
So it isn't something that I can really avoid, especially since I'm less stable... b-but I can be shocked out of it. Monsieur Daan did.
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[ otherwise, they may not have been able to interfere. ]
Shocked out of it... [ hmmm. he nods decisively. ] I understand. If it happens again, I’ll do what I can to help you calm down.
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[he's causing enough trouble already, for the people he's opted to tell.
after taking a moment to steel himself a bit--]
I wanted to- ask you something, as well, but I needed to explain what happened to you first. [to make sure he knew what happened. about what he is, and his instability.] Be- because-- um, when we spoke before, I thought you asked my opinions on finding my partner very quickly, so I was unsure if you only wanted to know or if you... thought that yours might be me.
I'm all right with telling you what I am either way. Even if you can't, or-- would prefer not to.
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[ punctuated with a formal bow, a show of his resolve.
...but the follow up question does surprise him, a little, so he shakes his head. ]
To be honest, I've no idea who my partner is. I've heard we can receive clues from the overseers, if we like, but I haven't asked. I didn't see the need, in case my partner didn't want to be found.
But I wouldn't mind it at all, if we were partners. And even if we aren't, I trust you.
[ how could he not, after mathis trusted him with something so important? ]
The monster I've been connected to is a dragon.
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[blinking up at him...]
I mostly asked about mine so I could try to have some idea of who might look for me... when I spoke with Famine about it, they said-- it inherently requires the will of two people. I wanted to find them first, so that I could... tell them what I just told you. I-in case they didn't want to take that sort of risk.
[so. well. a longer pause, deeper breath, fingers curled tight into the fabric of his sleeves.]
If you're... still willing to say that you wouldn't mind, after hearing it, then...
So am I.
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upon the two of them finding each other, a glow will suddenly emit from both of their bodies. magic will course through them, and they will both feel immediately that a wish is waiting to be granted.
they will also immediately feel their upgraded power: alongside their current one, they will each be able to have one additional vote in trial ]
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[ but that... isn't at all what he expected to hear. he had already accepted that he may never know his partner - it's a big step, after all, to anchor your life to another's, and completely understandable that some wouldn't want to.
and now, faced with that risk himself, iwatooshi can't help but smile. ]
So that makes us partners, then, does it?
[ without any further warning, he sweeps mathis up into a hug - not unlike before, but maybe a little warmer, when it's out of pure affection and not to stop a fight. ]
I couldn't ask for anyone better! Gahahahahaha!
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[the mod tag pre-inves notif jumpscare hhhhelp. mathis blinks at that glow, distracted by it briefly before all of a sudden he's being swept up and hugged-- he reflexively wraps his arms around iwa's neck for stability, clinging, before he smiles back.]
Y-you still could-! [there are undoubtedly better people to be with, when it comes to this.] But if you're really all right with me, then... then I'll do my best to be a good partner for you.
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No, I think I'm pretty lucky! We'll work well together, Mathis-dono. And if there's anything you need, don't hesitate to rely on me, alright?